Sunday | April 29, 2007

Broken

A new love means a new song that brings tears. This song, Broken by Seether, brings the most. I sing it when I hear it play. I can only mutter the first line without crying.

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[x2]
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

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Random Thoughts

I sit and wait for the phone to ring

 

Remembering all the great things

 

When I hear it ring my heart flutters

 

Your words I see melt me like butter

 

I miss you more then you will ever know

 

I miss you Kim as the tears flow

 

I sit and cry as I wait for you

 

I sit and cry as song word float by

 

Then we talk again

 

My heart flutters there is no pain

 

I feel alive I feel so great

 

If only there was a different fate

 

My love for you there is nothing higher

 

For you I hope until my eyes perspire

 

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Saturday | April 28, 2007

Back Burner Again

Back to the back burner. That's probably one of the worst places to be. Especially if you know your there. So many questions lingering through my head. Wait? Don't wait. If she does come around tell her that's nice, had yor chance. Can I wait around for you? If I do wait and it happens is it going to just happen again? This is quite the perplexing situation. Good thing I am busy for at least 2 more days. Though it sure would be nice if she'd call me. I talked to her online thrusday night and WOW I was floating. Felt amasing. Felt energized. Felt. WOW. Though the following afternoon I wa listening to music and I was crying. Crying over another girl. Such is the way of Mr. Nice Guy.
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Thursday | April 26, 2007

WTF

Well it's been awhile. For good reason tho. I thought I found a girl. A great girl. She was amasing. Was being the term. Apparently her issues caught up with her and she let me go. That's what I got out of it at least. Do I believe her? I actually do. I fell for this girl really hard and faster then I thought I could. She removed that knife from my heart that was put there by the she bitch. Now time will tell if this other girl just put it back. Or is holding it firmly in her grasp. Maybe she threw it away and is just teasing me with it. All I know is, my heart feels pain once again. This time my mind does as well. Wondering if she's confused me all along. Were the words she spoke true today? Was it all a great big lie? Time will tell but for now, mysery returns. The knife is back. And women aren't nothing but nuisances. Tired of being Mr. Nice. The guy that always does the right thing no matter what. It seems to be getting me no where in life. Maybe it's time to become an asshole. Worth a shot. Right as if I'm gonna do that I'm a nice guy. Who else would you women bitch too when you date assholes only to go back to another asshole?
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